Be my friend. Hold me.

It's been forever since I posted a blog, right? A lot has been going on with stupid school, stupid people, stupid life, etc.

School is ridiculous. So hard this year. I'm more than ready for summer again. Only...8 more months :(. AP classes are bullshit. Advice to everyone that exists: don't take them.

Lately I've felt really alone. I guess maybe that's why I haven't been blogging...I'd feel too much like the computer was my only friend. That, and I knew I'd vent about things on here that I'd later regret saying. People don't need to be all up in my business.

I've felt like a lot of my friends have changed and abandoned me. I'm now dating my former best friend, which eliminates that whole thing, and we've been hanging out less than before. In some ways I feel like he's abandoning me too. But maybe that's just me being ridiculously clingy.

Things are getting better, I guess. The past few days, anyhow.

Sometimes I just wish I could go back in time: change my mind, prevent people from forming habits, kick myself for making shit decisions, relive some moments in my past. Unfortunately, I can't go back to the way things used to be. I'm trying to learn to live with now, though. I wish I just had more time on my hands.